By Kyle Lovern
April 17, 2014
The Resurrection of Christ’s body shines as a timeless example of good triumphing over evil and light shining thru in the darkest of times. The Resurrection gives us a glimpse of what will happen to all who close their eyes in death with that Seed of Christ. For a time will come, and just as Christ raised that first resurrection morning so shall all who have one way or the other been placed in their “tomb”.
Easter is also a popular yet fitting time to partake of the Lord’s Supper which immediately invokes the thought of “self introspection”. We certainly take inventory of ourselves on Easter more than any other time of the year. Amen? Today I want to share some mistakes I have made along the way, the law of sowing and reaping in action, and Scriptures that will bring not only friends and families closer but also churches and communities.
Until the year 2006 it would have been easier to move a mountain with a pick and shovel than to get me to speak negatively regarding anyone. I was raised if you don’t have something good to say then say nothing at all. In that year something happened in my life that I felt to be very unfair and I certainly knew Christ wasn’t pleased. (We always know best, lol). I was faced with doing what I always did, keep my mouth shut. Or, I had a Pastor that had taught me in so many words “A sorry person is a sorry person” and it was alright to share with the world. Unfortunately I chose the latter. I shared my story with anyone who wanted to listen. I never lied, I was operating under a “Spiritual Premise”. I NEVER taught this premise to anyone but for some reason thought it was alright for me to use. A little time passes and someone from the community begins to speak things regarding myself and Consuming Fire Ministries that wasn’t true. “How dare they do such a thing?” I go to that person as I am instructed in Matthew 18 but they will not stop. What do I do? I was taught by a Spiritual mentor to “mark” that person in the community. How do you “mark” someone? With whom do you “mark” them? But this advice came from someone at least fifty per cent of the Tug Valley trusted so I started my “marking”, again letting people know what kind of person this “other” person was. No lies. I only spoke the truth. I wanted to do things the right way, but deep down I knew this wasn’t the right way, I have formal Bible training. But it felt good to vent.
In the mix of all of these stories my health is failing. I started having problems in 2006 with memory loss, loss of balance, weight gain, etc… It was problems I wasn’t noticing at the time but others were noticing in me. On a routine Doctor visit in 2009 it was discovered my blood oxygen level was only 85%. I was prescribed oxygen 24 hours per day and began to search for the root of my health problems. Unfortunately I did not use the oxygen like it was prescribed. I was only in my thirties and did not realize the memory loss and personality changes I was suffering. Also my best friend, my dad, was diagnosed with cancer in October 2010 and died in December 2011. Well in 2010-2011 the problems moved from outside the church to inside the church. I was accused of anything and everything you can think of, from stealing to violence. None of it was/is true but it spread thru the Tug Valley like wildfire and continues to this day.
Now let’s get back to sowing and reaping. I never had a problem in the Tug Valley community until I remembered the advice from an old pastor (Not Pastor Greg Whitlow) regarding “a sorry person is a sorry person” and used that improper doctrine. The problems grew worse when I operated under the premise “to mark” those causing me trouble. I am reaping a harvest of the seeds that were sown. Last
fall I was contacted by a dear friend regarding Topix. I have NEVER put anything negative on the site and only visited when I was notified I was the topic and was always very nice and professional. She went on to say that she and another couple I was very close to had seen what I had wrote about their children and other circumstances on Topix. These two couples I love dearly and have never spoke a harsh word to or about them. I tried to explain to her and she would not listen and I called the other couple the next morning and they did not listen. Why? Because they had seen me “mark” others several years ago. Thank God my pulmonary/cardio problems were discovered in October 2012 and corrected by surgery in December 2012. I am blessed to be alive. I do suffer from a lot of memory loss.
By the spring of 2013 I was beginning to feel like Chris Blevins again. I began to think about the “sorry is sorry” and “marking” doctrine and realized just how wrong it was. When we try to operate in that world, who decides who is “sorry” and who decides who should be “marked”. There is no central church. We have hundreds of churches in our area. Who serves as the “judge”? When we start to judge we know that we are opening ourselves up to judgement (Matthew 7). Love is the way and we are commanded to not even keep a record of those that wrong us (1 Corinthians 13). People will hurt us. We will hurt others. It happens. Don’t let a root of bitterness (Hebrew 12) grow in you. I have made a lot of phone calls apologizing to those who I hurt and to those who hurt me. When I was attacked I should have kept my mouth shut and let God deal with their Spirit rather than “mark” them. We don’t wrestle against flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:12) Gossip is sin. (James 4:11) But it is true? It doesn’t matter. Gossip is one of the 7 deadly sins ( Proverbs 6:16-19).
In summation, God’s grace has allowed me to return to what I already knew. My health is improving daily and I am better Spiritually and physically than I have been in a long time. As for the law of sowing and reaping? There are literally people that make sure a untrue rumor is spread regarding me on a bi-weekly basis. I know who really posted the vicious remarks on Topix regarding my friends and the group that continues to spread untrue rumors. But I have told no one, nor will I. I have learned a costly and valuable lesson. Matthew 5:44 “44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you”. Admit your faults, love, say you are sorry! No one is to blame for my problems but me. I should have kept my mouth shut, I should have taken care of my body, I should never have put people in leadership who were not ready. I caused hurt to a lot of people and still apologize to anyone I may have hurt. If I go by the grave I know a bodily resurrection waits for me. But this Resurrection Sunday, I am thankful for the life my God has breathed back into me. I thought three years ago life was over. In the last year and a half, I am learning it is only beginning. God has reminded me I have sown a lot of good seed in family, friends, community and churches. That harvest is on its way! God bless you all.